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A dumbass that believes in
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I simply HATE my past.
Thats why i choose to leave them behind.
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Monday, July 22, 2013
Title:Missing you hurts. </3
Missing you hurts more then anything else in this world. It's day 5 since u left. Day 6 of my sickness. Nt getting any better at all. Yet, all my mind was just filled wit u , u n u... I started to develop a habit of not talking to anyone. I reply texts. But not on reality that I'll talk much like I used to. A huge part of me was missing. Life doesn't seems so interesting as it will be again. So dead n boring. Wake up, eat, sleep, stare into blank spaces n cry. A vicious cycle that is capable to make me tear out of no reasons. Heart ache like millions of knives stabbing right into my heart. But there is nothing I could do. But to blame myself n my actions that resulted us into this situation. I hate myself. I hated myself to the core. I hate looking into the mirror to see that disgusting face. I just hate myself. My actions.
Blogging on a regular basis since I have no one to talk to. No one that cares. I wanna talk to him so badly. Wanna hug him so badly. But.. I didn't have the courage to talk to him. He posted online shooting at me. He must have hated me more then I hate myself. I must be the stepping stone in his life. Jus a stone blocking his way.. Maybe right from the start, I wasn't the right one for him. Some other girl was. But I still hope I was the one.
If he were to met another girl n she was the kind of girl of this dreams, I guess I'll be happy for him. Although I won't be able to accept it. But I'll still hope for the best for him. Have the prefect relationship. Rather than being with a hopeless piece of shit like me that won't bring him any good but troubles after another.
Last but not least, I still love n misses him. I wish we could be together again. But I guess it's impossible.</3
Signing off with another photo from the past that he like about us. Was flipping through my photo albums n decided to post a photo up..
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